Number one priority: Eatin right and exercising… Daaaaaang i’m sore Intense workout session tomorrow D: lol But exercising gives you endorphins Endorphins make you happy And happy people don’t kill their husbands… They just don’t.

Number two priority: try to be happier, send out good vibes and karma it up lol

Ooh and number three: start writing again because apparently I’m “wasting my talent” lulz

Understand this site… I thought I was commenting on stuffs but I guess I repose things lol

because, why should I keep my household events to myself?

I got up at 5:45 am this morning. I was getting ready for a class that started at 8am. Lithography. I was there from 8 am till 2 pm, as it is a 6 hour class. By the time I got out, I was understandably hungry, so when I got back to my…

I’m really sorry your day had such a bad series of events. Your a lovely, intelligent, level-headed person and I’m sure you’ll find that one day your kindness will pay off :)

This song describes my life, especially the last verses. Seriously I was young and dumb. Still am. And I’ve said this before but after this time I’m so fuckin done with him. And I’ll remember that people don’t change and all trust, honesty and chivalry flew out the window ages ago…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eae2DGL16f4

*My empty promises

Led to our demise

And I could never tell you how I really feel

And for that I eternally apologize

I hope you never forget the tapping at your window

With the harsh cold and the jealousy

Running through my bones

We were both selfish, but I think I was more

I would like to thank you, for showing me

A part of myself that I have never seen

Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun

And I guess these things just tend to fall apart

And I hope you feel the same*

My empty promises

*My empty promises

Brought us to an end

I just hurt you and I never looked back

Now I have no logic to defend

I hope you never forget the tapping at your window

With the harsh cold and the jealousy

Running through my bones

We were both selfish, but I think I was more

I would like to thank you, for showing me

A part of myself that I have never seen

Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun

And I guess these things just tend to fall apart

I would like to thank you, for showing me

A part of the world that I have never seen

Yeah, I was young and dumb, but it still was fun

I’m forever indebted to you

I hope you feel the same

You seem like such a big part

Of my life and my heart

But the truth is I’ve found something new

And she easily towers over you*

You seem like such a big part

Of my life and my heart

But the truth is I’ve found something new

And she easily towers over you

I bet she does. 
       But shell have to find out about your bull shit the hard way
               I mean you started your relationship while you were "playing" other girls... And hell, one day into it and your back to flirting with other girls... 

~Fuck you, goodbye I’m sorry if I seem bitter but that’s bull shit, and uncalled for. And you didn’t even have the decency to apologize or even explain. Or to check if I was okay after it all.~

Has been full of ups and downs. Hating things loving things. Making important decisions then reassessing them. Wowzers It’s been a roller coaster but I’m loving it.

I really need my best friend.

The way I’m feeling there are only two people in the world I would have with me right now. Just crying and there’s that someone I want to hold me and to tell me it will all be okay, but he’ll never be there for me like that again. And knowing that makes me feel so much worse. And the other is my best friend and she doesn’t even talk to me anymore. Every so often if I call or text her well have out short convo then won’t talk for a week but right now I fucking need one of the two. But I know that there’s nothing I can do about the fact that neither of them are here for me. Whatever. Fuck.

Well this is gonna be short because I went on a rant about this yesterday but I’m realizing that my exes are in my past for a reason. I am glad I’m no longer with them because there’s a reason it didn’t work the first time. It’s not gonna work the second time. But I’m okay with where I am.

I’m sorry I’m in such an odd state. It’s just insane to me to find out that the person who made one of the largest impacts on my life never cared. I mean I knew he stopped caring at one point but I mean he didn’t care through any part of it. Just used me. Ugh I’m sooo glad now that I listened to my sister and my friends in deciding not to go back with him last time, but when he walked back into my life this time I thought “hey maybe he has changed” but No, not a chance, still as immature as before, still just wants me to change myself. All I find out is that he used me before, he doesn’t even know the most important aspects of my life, and probably all he wanted was to use me again. So I say this now, for the first time and I mean it. IM DONE WITH YOU. I know I’m not that great, but I think I deserve better than what you’ve given me.

Dear stranger, I obviously don’t know you or you wouldn’t be a stranger. I don’t know you, don’t care about you. If you don’t want to be a stranger than you should talk to me but otherwise I’ll never notice you. That’s all I’ve got to say to you, have a nice life.

My dreams are to get out of this town, out of the valley and do something with my life. I hate this place. I long for open minded people, good local music, maybe even some nice hobos and street performers. My dream is to find true happiness, to find someone who accepts me for me, cu guess what, I DON’T GIVE A FUCK who people want me to be. Imma be me and I am not gonna change for you, I did that the first time around and I’ll be damned if I do it again. So goodbye valley, goodbye judgemental small minded people.